Kids need to socialize with other kids. It helps them grow. Which is why I wanted to know before Jesse tries to reach out if you'll be keeping Luca away from him because of me.
[Al is quiet for several seconds, seriously thinking it over. It would be the smartest idea to have Luca as far away from demons in general as possible, especially at this point in his life, but realistically, Break would fillet Lucifer if he even looked wrong at the boy.
Not to mention what Al would do.]
That would depend on what your plans are. Luca will obviously know you and talk to you, if he's friends with Jesse- how would you be planning to handle that?
I'd talk to him. [He sounds like Al has asked him how he plans to explain the sun coming up.] I'm going to talk to him whether or not he and Jesse are friends. You should probably know that, too.
Whatever he needs to get off his chest. You know how much weight he carries around on those little shoulders, don't you, Al? I can relate to him for the same reasons you can.
[Al's fingers slowly work into fists. It's one thing for Al and Break to make the conscious decision of speaking to and including Lucifer in their lives -- Luca legitimately does not know better, and certainly not even to know to keep Lucifer at arm's length.]
[Because if he's worried over nothing and Lucifer is teasing him -- he just needs to know. He has to. He asks out of the limited but existing respect he has for Lucifer.]
There is nothing he can do for me that I can't do for myself, Al.
[But Lucifer is very much alone here, and he knows it--especially since Castiel is no longer even an ally. He'll take kids with demon contracts over nothing at all.]
I'm not going to hurt him. And if you leave, I might even protect him. And in the meantime, I plan to be an ear for him. I can explain things about demons that you don't understand.
You have no idea why I do any of the things I do, Al, and neither does anyone else. And I know, I get it, you don't care, I'm the bad guy here...and blah, blah, blah.
The point is you all rush in half-cocked and then wonder when things don't go your way. Children are better judges because they listen.
That boy's seen enough pain and horror for a whole lifetime. He doesn't need you adding to it by setting an example that it's fine to commit it himself.
[Al takes a deep breath. He thinks of the aftermath of his mother's death. He thinks of the gun in his hand, he thinks of Yuca collapsed on the floor of that old, dark warehouse, sobbing.
Begging him, voice breaking. Begging Al to kill him.]
The time will come, someday, when Luca will have to make a choice like that. But not right now. Not even a few years from now.
He needs time to be innocent. To be able to develop a strong heart that will carry him through the times when he'll have to make those choices for himself.
I know it won't be forever, and it might not be possible, but-
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:13 am (UTC)[He clasps his hands behind his head and lies back in the grass, so he's looking at Al almost upside down.]
There aren't that many kids here, have you noticed?
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:14 am (UTC)[Al's beginning to frown. Why would Lucifer want a child around? Why ELSE?]
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:17 am (UTC)[Offline]
Date: 2012-06-01 01:23 am (UTC)Not to mention what Al would do.]
That would depend on what your plans are. Luca will obviously know you and talk to you, if he's friends with Jesse- how would you be planning to handle that?
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:25 am (UTC)[Offline]
Date: 2012-06-01 01:42 am (UTC)[He asks it quietly, because he knows exactly how Lucifer is. And Lucifer has to know how vulnerable Luca is right now.]
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:43 am (UTC)[Offline]
Date: 2012-06-01 01:46 am (UTC)Why do you have an interest?
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:47 am (UTC)[Offline]
Date: 2012-06-01 01:50 am (UTC)[Because if he's worried over nothing and Lucifer is teasing him -- he just needs to know. He has to. He asks out of the limited but existing respect he has for Lucifer.]
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Date: 2012-06-01 01:52 am (UTC)[But Lucifer is very much alone here, and he knows it--especially since Castiel is no longer even an ally. He'll take kids with demon contracts over nothing at all.]
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:03 am (UTC)You can't be everything for him, Al.
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:28 am (UTC)You have no idea why I do any of the things I do, Al, and neither does anyone else. And I know, I get it, you don't care, I'm the bad guy here...and blah, blah, blah.
The point is you all rush in half-cocked and then wonder when things don't go your way. Children are better judges because they listen.
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:42 am (UTC)[Al bristles.]
That boy's seen enough pain and horror for a whole lifetime. He doesn't need you adding to it by setting an example that it's fine to commit it himself.
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:45 am (UTC)Sometimes it is, Al. Sometimes, the only way to get something done is by doing something you don't want to do.
[Though he leaves unspoken the part about how he does enjoy violence. He'll let Al bring that up, if he likes.]
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:48 am (UTC)Begging him, voice breaking. Begging Al to kill him.]
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Date: 2012-06-01 02:56 am (UTC)The time will come, someday, when Luca will have to make a choice like that. But not right now. Not even a few years from now.
He needs time to be innocent. To be able to develop a strong heart that will carry him through the times when he'll have to make those choices for himself.
I know it won't be forever, and it might not be possible, but-
I want to give that to him.
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Date: 2012-06-01 03:10 am (UTC)[Lucifer doesn't even bother looking at him now. Al is, after all, just like the rest.
He tosses the tissue-paper-wrapped package up at him.]
Give him that, too. But you're crippling him if you honestly think a strong heart is what will keep him going when things really fall apart.
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Date: 2012-06-01 03:14 am (UTC)... what does he need, then?
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