A lot of reasons. [None of which he really wants to share, but he has to pick at least one.]
Look, I know you're all hoping that because I like him, I'll see the good in humanity. But here's the thing: he's the exception. Being with him has made it more obvious what a waste of space humans are. None of you are like him.
But he cares about you, and he puts a lot of his worth in what he can do for other people. So I try to let him have his community. I don't want to break him, Al.
And what makes a better gift than, 'I let your friend punch me in the face and still chose not to turn him inside out'?
[He hopes for a long of things. None of which seem like they're going to happen.]
... I honestly don't know anymore.
[It's tangled up in a lot of things. He'd thought that Lucifer might be starting to care a little. It put Al in a position to trust him, just a small bit. But now it looks like that slipped away.]
It's not fair of me to expect you to change who you are to suit me, but-
I can't in good conscience invest myself, as much as I might want to.
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Date: 2012-06-02 06:42 am (UTC)And for the record, Rhode has a better left hook than you do. So your theory's just right out the window, isn't it?
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Date: 2012-06-02 07:03 am (UTC)What do you think?
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Date: 2012-06-02 07:11 am (UTC)[That one isn't a rhetorical question.]
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Date: 2012-06-02 08:13 am (UTC)When you're willing to try to understand why he is the way he is.
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:25 pm (UTC)Look, I know you're all hoping that because I like him, I'll see the good in humanity. But here's the thing: he's the exception. Being with him has made it more obvious what a waste of space humans are. None of you are like him.
But he cares about you, and he puts a lot of his worth in what he can do for other people. So I try to let him have his community. I don't want to break him, Al.
And what makes a better gift than, 'I let your friend punch me in the face and still chose not to turn him inside out'?
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:32 pm (UTC)I'm hoping that you'll love him enough to want to see what he sees. He is different.
... that's why I started talking to you. Even with the things you'd done.
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:41 pm (UTC)[It's hard to like someone when you see every temptation hanging over every person's head.]
Why did you keep talking to me? Same reason?
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:42 pm (UTC)Partially.
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:44 pm (UTC)[He sits again under the tree and peers up at Al.]
And partially Joshua?
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Date: 2012-06-02 11:51 pm (UTC)[He hopes for a long of things. None of which seem like they're going to happen.]
... I honestly don't know anymore.
[It's tangled up in a lot of things. He'd thought that Lucifer might be starting to care a little. It put Al in a position to trust him, just a small bit. But now it looks like that slipped away.]
It's not fair of me to expect you to change who you are to suit me, but-
I can't in good conscience invest myself, as much as I might want to.
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