[ his hands still and his face comes up instantly. there's a frown, then he's reaching over to take al's hand, and it's like he would with luca, were he trying to reassure him. soon, it's al's whole arm, and then alois' cheek is against his leg. ]
You're the bravest person I know, Al. Next to Luca.
[ it sounds profoundly, fearfully personal and he can't honestly imagine it. it's the worst thing: to remember everything in excruciating vividness. not only sights, but the scent of things or sensation of things against skin.
still, to lose that chunk of time and be told something so horrific. well, alois would have looked for luca just the same but still. ]
I have this— A lot of the time, I think I've completely lost it. He's corporeal. I can even feel his breath sometimes, if he's close enough, and laughing. When we were small, it was my favorite part of the cold season. I'd think, 'make sure he's laughing again tomorrow.'
Here, I ... I close my eyes, or he goes around a corner, and it's like I forget that he knows how to tie his shoes, now, and read letters, and even scold me for being an arse.
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:12 am (UTC)I- I made it for you. You need something to call yours.
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:14 am (UTC)It's wonderful. [ he glances back up, with a tiny laugh. ] Is it because you know I want to go everywhere?
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:17 am (UTC)Have you ever been on one?
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:20 am (UTC)[ pick, pick. p- pick. ] Have you been on one?
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-11-04 02:23 am (UTC)[ uhhh not being prematurely jealous is really difficult. ]
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-11-04 02:30 am (UTC)You're the bravest person I know, Al. Next to Luca.
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:34 am (UTC)Thank you. I'm glad you have faith in me.
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-11-04 02:43 am (UTC)still, to lose that chunk of time and be told something so horrific. well, alois would have looked for luca just the same but still. ]
Did you find him?
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:44 am (UTC)Yes, I did.
[Even though it took three years.]
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Date: 2012-11-04 02:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-11-04 02:59 am (UTC)Here, I ... I close my eyes, or he goes around a corner, and it's like I forget that he knows how to tie his shoes, now, and read letters, and even scold me for being an arse.
[ his cheeks are wet. ]
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Date: 2012-11-04 03:03 am (UTC)[Al wipes his tears with a small smile.]
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Date: 2012-11-04 03:04 am (UTC)Thank you for my train. I do really love it.
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Date: 2012-11-04 03:21 am (UTC)[From crying.]
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Date: 2012-11-04 03:25 am (UTC)[He holds out his hand.]
... or strawberry milk. I won't tell Ed.
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