[ it's weird to hold the body. it's more stiff. cooler under the feathers. his knees feel weak and he wants to vomit, wants to cry again, but instead he manages to keep quiet and still. he strokes feathers, and frowns at al when he sees the bag once he comes back. ]
It needs a burial. We have to ... I want to send it off.
[ he takes care with it, when placing the hen's body back on the floor, setting her up like she's sitting. afterward, he takes care of the spot al mentioned, any remaining, helps him generally get the kitchen back into an acceptable order.
cleaning is strange, and this is definitely, since his arriving, the only time he's done it willingly or without half-assing it. ]
[ ...! this stalls him, and al might get a couple steps or so ahead before alois regains composure and gently tugs the lapels of it closer around himself. he follows al to the edge of the property he mentioned before, saying nothing, tucking his chin into the coat, hyper-aware of the fabric against his knuckles where he keeps it clutched around himself. ]
[It's a relief to leave the house, and he leads the way first to the small tool shed to pick up a spade, then to a low copse of shrubbery with a small tree at the edge of the property. The branches have already shown signs of autumn. It's a pretty little place, out of the way.]
I think he'd like to be a bird- but really, he's more like a kitten. Curious about everything.
[He turns, and quietly hands Alois the spade. ... it's impossible to make this right. It kills him that something had to go through that pain. He's angry and worried and scared, knows that he's facing a true battle, but he doesn't believe that Alois is beyond help.
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Luca's happy, but he's missed you. You're definitely a person, and you can be one here.
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It needs a burial. We have to ... I want to send it off.
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[He finds himself relaxing -- Alois seems to think more of this now.]
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Do we have flowers?
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[He puts water onto the floor, scrubs up each and every drop of blood, finding each bit of feather.]
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[He straightens up quickly.]
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There's another spot over there-
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cleaning is strange, and this is definitely, since his arriving, the only time he's done it willingly or without half-assing it. ]
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... all right. Go get my coat -- it's hanging on the back of the chair there. It's cold out.
[He points it out, and moves to gather up the remains of the hen.]
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The morning is quiet and grey.]
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[He smiles, just a small bit.]
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[He turns, and quietly hands Alois the spade. ... it's impossible to make this right. It kills him that something had to go through that pain. He's angry and worried and scared, knows that he's facing a true battle, but he doesn't believe that Alois is beyond help.
Today will be the first step.]
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