[ Seeing Al seems to bring the tears right back, even as he crawls toward him, nails almost digging into the Al's back with how desperately he holds onto him. ]
D-didn't want Brother t' see me cryin'. He'd get u-upset.
[ He clings more, trying to breath calmly, to hold in it so he can speak without his voice breaking. Instead, he begins sobbing so hard it sounds like he might have hurt his throat. ]
I messed up, Al, I messed up bad. I-I thought if Hannah destroyed everythin' B-Brother would be happiest an' it'd be okay even if I was gone. But I didn't think-- t-that Brother loves me most a-an' I ruined everythin' and if he f-finds out-- [ He's having trouble breathing now, nearly hyperventilating. ] I-I left h-him alone a-an' ruined everythin' an'-- It's gonna ki- kill 'im, Al, it's gonna kill 'im an' it's my fault.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 06:29 am (UTC)D-didn't want Brother t' see me cryin'. He'd get u-upset.
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 06:32 am (UTC)It's all right, I have you.
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 06:45 am (UTC)I messed up, Al, I messed up bad. I-I thought if Hannah destroyed everythin' B-Brother would be happiest an' it'd be okay even if I was gone. But I didn't think-- t-that Brother loves me most a-an' I ruined everythin' and if he f-finds out-- [ He's having trouble breathing now, nearly hyperventilating. ] I-I left h-him alone a-an' ruined everythin' an'-- It's gonna ki- kill 'im, Al, it's gonna kill 'im an' it's my fault.
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 06:57 am (UTC)[Al holds him close, rubbing his back slowly, shutting his eyes. Luca and he himself had made exactly the same mistake.]
I know. I know just how you feel.
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 07:06 am (UTC)offline
Date: 2012-06-04 03:06 pm (UTC)You can spend time with him here.
I know it's not the same, but... it's a gift, something extra.
offline
Date: 2012-06-04 06:09 pm (UTC)offline
Date: 2012-06-04 11:35 pm (UTC)offline
Date: 2012-06-06 05:41 am (UTC)offline
Date: 2012-06-06 05:50 am (UTC)You have a chance.
offline
Date: 2012-06-06 06:01 am (UTC)