[Al half-laughs and crouches down to pet Kitty. She immediately climbs into his lap, worming her way into his arms.]
... for one, he's with someone, and I'm not the type to be in an open relationship. Two, when it comes to our emotional needs, we function much better as friends. We drastically disagree about a lot of things, which is healthy in a friendship but could cause more friction in a relationship if it's not handled well, which I'm not sure we're capable of doing at our current maturity level.
Three, he does still see me in a lot of ways as a child. That's not a healthy dynamic to have in a relationship. Though that could be worked past, it's another thing I worry over.
Four, he deserves better than to be my desperate rebound and always wonder if he's second best.
Five, if either of us disappeared, it would destroy the other.
[It doesn't hurt. There are other reasons too, but he's not going to go into Lucifer and Break's relationship and how being with Al would cause friction between them.]
It's just how we handle things. But it's enough that it causes friction that could be hurtful if we were closer.
Things got better. I'm trying to enjoy it while it lasts.
[He finds a piece that might work for a floor--or whatever it is Al does to make them meld together. He melts the paint off of it, blows on it to cool it, and offers it to Al for inspection.]
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A relationship between us wouldn't work.
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Besides, you'll be surprised what the other stages of grief can make you want to do.
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[Still rubbing Kitty's neck]
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[He looks at Al, debating what to say. Eventually he shrugs.]
People try for second chances all the time. Especially when they're vulnerable. ...And this might be the most surreal conversation I've had all week.
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... for one, he's with someone, and I'm not the type to be in an open relationship. Two, when it comes to our emotional needs, we function much better as friends. We drastically disagree about a lot of things, which is healthy in a friendship but could cause more friction in a relationship if it's not handled well, which I'm not sure we're capable of doing at our current maturity level.
Three, he does still see me in a lot of ways as a child. That's not a healthy dynamic to have in a relationship. Though that could be worked past, it's another thing I worry over.
Four, he deserves better than to be my desperate rebound and always wonder if he's second best.
Five, if either of us disappeared, it would destroy the other.
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[he might as well be blunt.]
What 'things' do you fundamentally disagree on, anyway?
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It's just how we handle things. But it's enough that it causes friction that could be hurtful if we were closer.
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You two smash trees when you're angry. Seems like important common ground.
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[You know what also helps grief? Progress.]
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[Kitty is purring and falling asleep. Al takes a look at some scrap.]
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[He finds a piece that might work for a floor--or whatever it is Al does to make them meld together. He melts the paint off of it, blows on it to cool it, and offers it to Al for inspection.]
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Can I ask?
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[Code for the fact that he'll be reeeeally disappointed if Lucifer goes all Saw on people again.]
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[Things change fast here.]
But if things stay just like they are right now...I could live with it.
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[Yes.]
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How many cages?
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