It shouldn't be any surprise, then, that I like that bits of him that didn't care. There aren't a lot of people here, Al, and even fewer I can work with.
[He leaves it at that. He and Break have (more or less) sorted it out, and he's made the decision to just let things be and trust that they'll end up in his favor.
Besides, loving something doesn't matter if you don't love it enough. I don't mean about Xerxes--I mean it about all of you. All of us, because the stories I could tell about angels who didn't care enough...
[Except that Lucifer's siblings have been lied to for so long, this isn't an unexpected reaction. And from Joshua--who Lucifer is slowly beginning to see--that would be perfectly normal. Why find God?]
To hold Him accountable. He won't listen to me, or you...unless we make Him.
[It's Lucifer who stops it, halfway through, when his mind clears. As it often does it leaves him a little dazed, and horrified. And this time, nauseous. He hadn't divulged all that much, but mention of Michael, or missing him, was enough.]
...We should probably put an end to these little rendezvous. Don't you think.
[His expression is carefully guarded. He should know this. He should be able to recall what he's said. But he can't, because those memories are jumbled with the real ones of heaven, which are all out of place.]
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[He leaves it at that. He and Break have (more or less) sorted it out, and he's made the decision to just let things be and trust that they'll end up in his favor.
It's about as easy as it sounds.]
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[He smiles, a touch pained. Because this is why he loves him.]
He can look at anyone, good or bad, no matter what's happened. And he can find something to love about them.
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Even if love without limits can be just as dangerous.
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[He hears Michael's voice echoing, and has to look at Al to begin to remember where he is.]
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What's your take on all this?
['All this' meaning anything, anything at all. He just needs whoever this is to talk.]
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I don't approve. But I think he's... good for you, more than you're bad for him. Most of the time.
I wish you two weren't taking this risk, but I understand why. And everyone else it too afraid to try anything. I'm willing to do my part.
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[He's watching the other side of the wall, out toward the mountains. And he's relatively sure this is someone he knows. An angel.]
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[Gently. He's fairly sure they're talking about the same thing.]
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I just have to keep reminding myself that at the end of this all, he's coming away with me. And then we'll find God.
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[Which probably shatters any belief that he's talking to an angel.]
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To hold Him accountable. He won't listen to me, or you...unless we make Him.
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[He offers Al a sardonic smile that is still nowhere near as condescending as it would be if he was thinking clearly.]
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[The same thing he'd said earlier, but there's genuine regret in his tone now.]
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[Al sighs, deeply.]
Lucifer, look at me?
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...I wish Michael was here. I wanted him here to see how things had changed...how happy we could all be.
I was wrong.
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...We should probably put an end to these little rendezvous. Don't you think.
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Lucifer is disturbed, and he can see it.]
... you've been doing this for the last few weeks.
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Oh? Learn anything juicy?
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