[ He clings more, trying to breath calmly, to hold in it so he can speak without his voice breaking. Instead, he begins sobbing so hard it sounds like he might have hurt his throat. ]

I messed up, Al, I messed up bad. I-I thought if Hannah destroyed everythin' B-Brother would be happiest an' it'd be okay even if I was gone. But I didn't think-- t-that Brother loves me most a-an' I ruined everythin' and if he f-finds out-- [ He's having trouble breathing now, nearly hyperventilating. ] I-I left h-him alone a-an' ruined everythin' an'-- It's gonna ki- kill 'im, Al, it's gonna kill 'im an' it's my fault.